Forgiving yourself is the hardest thing to do.

So, I made an error in judgement last night at my networking board meeting and brought up some things said to me by another member. I ended up waking up with this nightmare about the lady finding out and being horribly angry. Funny it was, because it had the actor from Grey's Antaomy that plays the ex-army doctor and he's always angry and trying to protect his new wife on the show. He was the one delivering the message to me about my friends anger. Ugh. Needless to say, I couldn't get back to sleep. I was in turmoil over what I had done. In hindsight, I could have left her name out of it. Duh. I even went so far as to get up and go write an email to one of the ladies who was courageous enough to put up her hand last night and try to stop me from going further in "gossip". Funny again, the email came back undelieverable. I finally managed to get back to sleep out on the couch and woke feeling a little better. I think my mind and heart finally were working together and I was accepting the fact that I am forgiven. Let it go and move on and try not to do this kind of thing again. Forgiveness is never easy but I think we are always hardest on ourselves but there are many songs out there that I have been hearing that remind me that I am forgiven. It's all about grace. I asked God to forgive me and he did so now I am moving on and hopefully will grow.